This post was supposed to be about homemade cinnamon vanilla almond butter. But it didn’t turn out as planned.
This post wasn’t supposed to be over a month in the making. Definitely not as planned.
Which seems to reflect how things have been going since internship ended. Not as planned.
I never thought I would be over 3 months out of internship and still without a job as an RD. But here I am, still working at my old job, constantly searching, filling out online job applications, crafting cover letter, and tweaking resume details on an almost daily basis. I have applied for casual positions, temporary positions, part time positions, and full time positions. I have looked for local jobs and jobs in other provinces. I have applied for jobs I really, really want, and some that weren’t so great. I’ve applied for jobs where they aren’t necessarily looking for an RD, but where I feel my skills would be useful, and where I could gain experience in certain aspects that would help me later on. I’ve applied for jobs that pay well and that have crappy pay. I’ve even had people recommend me for jobs. I’ve had a couple of interviews. But at this point in time…I’m still searching.
It has been a really frustrating time, especially when I see fellow classmates posting little updates on Facebook about their current RD jobs. It makes me wonder if things would have been different had my internship been with another health authority or if I’d had different experiences. It makes me question my resume and cover letter writing abilities. It makes me wonder if I should have networked and fished for job opportunities more or earlier. So many what if’s.
Everyone has been telling me that it just means the right thing hasn’t come along yet. That any work place would be lucky to have me. And sometimes I can believe that. But it’s been hard to keep positive all the time. I know I’ve snapped at people close to me because of my own frustration in looking for work. I’ve felt unmotivated and have wanted to do nothing but watch food network and read all day. I’m sure it’s why I’ve avoided writing here on the blog as well – I just haven’t been able to find the words to write a proper post.
I’ve thought about making my own opportunities, utilizing my entrepreneurship skills, but even that’s been hard. I get bogged down in a myriad of ideas without a good plan for making any of them into reality. Some are abstract, some require more capital/investment than I have available. Some just seem overwhelming.
I know something will come along, something will happen. I didn’t quit my previous career and go back to school for nothing. I want to empower people to make the best food and nutrition choices for their unique situation. And I have my RD exam to prepare for – it’s only 1 month away! I didn’t write this post to get sympathy or to ask for a job…I just need to put into words how I have been feeling and how things have been going. I needed to get words flowing again in order to blog about what I love again – food!
If you got through all that – thanks for listening and letting me indulge in my personal frustrations. I promise to be back soon with all the noms :)